Just My Life In Spain

Hi guys, sorry for the sad or crappy post, but you know life is not always rainbow and smiles , and I just wanted to keep it real. Today I feel 100% better, I talked to my dad, and it wasn't the talk that made me feel better, it was the realization that I didn't have a plan, or something to do, or way to solve my problems, and I now I have it. I know I have a lot of more tears and struggles to come, but "One day at the time", for now I know what I have to do, and I'll starting tomorrow to do it. I was waiting for something/someone that with a Magic wand solve all this mess, but It has to be me, and my closest people!! I'm working hard to get what I want, and I guess that when I finally have it, I will appreciate more than other people. I know that people has bigger problems or hard life than I am, but I know that there's a lot of other people that has a better and easy life than I have, someday I will explain to you all my struggle with the money

Hello Guys, 5 minutes ago I screamed into a pillow for first time ever! and felt SO GOOD, well now I'm felling good!! haha I have so many things in my mind, and today was a happy day until my aunt called me to told me something that it would put me in an awkward position with my bosses, It's not a big deal, but I don't like to look bad in any situation, and less to my bosses, so I spent about 4 hours with headache and thinking and thinking, and then I saw the pillow and just did it, I scream 3 times, and I'm feeling better, the problem isn't solve, but At least I don't feel like crap, also it's not the end of the world... My head is running around a lot this days, and I felling very bad about myself!!! I need to know that everything is gonna be okay!! For now I'm gonna try to enjoy Pretty Little Liars Fatal Finale!!! I also know that I'm not gonna sleep very well today!! Okay bye, sorry for this unhappy post!! but I need to write!!

Finally I'm home, I don't know for how long but at least this week I'm going to be here. I was ready to leave, I mean I was happy and comfortable there, but everyone asked me when I was coming home, so I came. Also because this weekend was so exhausted, I spent a wonderful time, but mentally, and almost physical was exhausting, Elizabeth went home for the weekend and well she just has a strong personality and let's just say that she ruined my weekend, and she got me tired mentally, I needed a break from that house. Also I came because Las Gochas are here, and well I thought that I was going to see them today but I didn't, I took a nap and did nothing, I have so much in my mind right know, problems with my trip, that I don't know how to solve, but well here I am in my house and back to my life. That's all for now, short entry mostly for me!!

Hi guys!! Tomorrow will mark 2 weeks since my kids and bosses left and I'm still here, in their house, my second home. The main reason because I'm still here is because I WANT, and the second is because my boss give me the excuse to stay. This is the view of the house Now that they are living in The USA, they need to sell some things, actually they want to sell Ipads Air and Iphones, and they put me in charge to do it, and also another stuff like bicycles, kids toys, an A/C and stuff like that, they aren't paying me for this, thought they give me a PC because I asked for, but money I don't think so, also in two weeks I haven't sold a thing , so that's that. I'm here with mimi (the grandma) and even though that she is very nice, sometime she's drove me crazy and I think I'm ready to go home, I do not have anything else to do here, also "The gochas" are coming on Monday and I want to be with them, but it's mostly because I

Hi, I was not going to do this, but I will do it for fun. Once Again I'm linking up with Kelly's Korner blog , this time for is Single day. I did it before, and I know is a long shot to meet someone in this way, and also living in another country!! But who knows, now with Skype could work right? Well First My Name is a Very latin name, Maydelin I'm 25 years old and I can describe myself as a fun women, full of dreams and hope, who work work very hard to accomplish my goals. I'm From Venezuela, I don't know for sure if I'm going to move to Florida this year or to Spain!! It's in God's Hand. I come from a very large, loving family, and I love them very much, I want that for me too, a big family, with big parties, and have a lot of fun. Last year I got my degree in Preschool teacher, kids are my life, I think that they light up the world. I love baking, If I could, I would make a different cake, cookies or whatever everyday. I'm

Hi again!! After felling so sad, I decided to make my day better... Yesterday I wanted to eat cinnamon rolls, so I look for a easy recipe and make them I was still or I'm still sad, but writing about it and baking made my day better. I'm still don't know what I'm going to do, but tomorrow is another day! This Time I tried to do the most simple cinnamon rolls, and it was so much better!! They taste the best! I'm still working on doing it better, I overcook this time, but they still are so much yummy than the last ones!!

Hi guys, I didn't planed this post for today but I feel the need to write about it. For about on month I was living in my bubble, and today it POP. Since my kids were here I've been living in their house, I been here for about 3 weeks, I think I accepted because this house is a reminds me of my past, when I felt that my life had a routine and I felt in one sense complete, and also because of course I love this family very much, but 2 years has passed in I'm feeling kind of stuck, and now I don't know what to do. For about quite time also I've been living about the saying "one day at the time" that's means, I won't be worry for the tomorrow or future and "as it came as we see", that was working till now, yesterday I found out that I can't pay for my studies in Spain, at least this year, and here there's no airplane tickets for anywhere, and also there's not job in Spain, so the odds are against me, I'm not giving up,

I think I'm missing 2 days, but I can't remember witch or what we did!! jajaja Well last day was the busier one!! We had to woke up very early because we had another baptize in Maracay (tow hour from Caracas) and we stayed there for about 5 hours and then we returned to Caracas. We Visited Elizabeth and after that we had a BBQ at night, it was their uncle Birthday. In Maracay it was fine, I saw glimpse of the old R, the grumpy one, but he was hungry, and miss V just behave very well, there just was the godmothers, godfathers, grandpas, grandmas, and me hahaha, for that a lot of people got angry but well that's they way that they decided to do it, and it was fine. Elizabeth is in another house, and they went to say good bye, R was very cranky, it remain me the old times, and well I had a mix of feeling, because he was the same boy as 1.5 years ago and because that I felt a little scare, he never gonna change!! but well that's R. and in the BBQ, we all were

Hi guys, I know I'm a mess here, but you know if I'm a mess in my blog is because something is happening!! It's not good or bad, it's just stuff, and I decided to live one day at the time. Soon I'll be telling you whats going on, For now let me still talking about their visit!! This day we went to the Peluqueria (hairdressing) My little V lovess going there, so when we told her that that day was the DAY, she just got very excited!!! R wasn't that happy, HA! boys!! My little V got a new hairstyle and my boy a haircut!! Well that day we went there and also we eat pizza, a very good pizza!!! In the Pizzeria V was telling me everything that she wants instead of her father, I mean she told me first, and then I had to tell him, it was so funny, she just know That I will do everything that she ask me to do, it was always like that and always going to be like that!! I love my kids very much!!! and I was so happy that everything was exactly the same, I

This day I was left alone with my little Princess, R went to his cousin house and my bosses went to do another errands, so I spent the whole day with her Of course I was more than happy, It was the time that I was craving for. We just talked and Talked, and played and played, any game that she wanted to play. She just wanted to play with her old car toy in the backyard, she was happy there. I took this time to bond with her and tell her that I love her so much, and I think that it was the first time that she told me something about the things that we used to do in the past, she told me things about the park and her toys. We made Chocolate chip cookies together and eat lunch and them we played a little more!! Night time of this day was my favorite of all, in this house at night a cat come and sleep in the table of the backyard, and V wanted to see him, so at night time we made a "camp" in the living room, with chairs, some spy Lents, and of course snacks to spy the

Next day was really the day to leave for Caracas, before Caracas we had to stop in Maracay because my bosses needed to do something there, so we went to an Aunt's house and stayed there for a couple hours, IT WAS BORING. The kids just watched Tv there, and I just talked with the Uncle of them, I just wanted to be in Caracas, but the stop in Maracay was very Important so I couldn't do nothing. We ate lunch, ate some Ice cream and Finally we were off to Caracas. When we arrive to pikychaky it was early and I made a bunch of activities with the kids, also MJ (the favorite cousin of my kids) it was staying the night so it was a little of more work but also so much fun. That day we made experiments, we made a lemonade sale, and played board games, also it was so much drama over the cousin, my kids were fighting of who was spending more time with her, or what game play. That day I realize that R was the same kid that I left 1.5 years ago, I mean he is so much better, b

Sorry but this post does not have any pics, I was having so much fun, and Also I was alone with the kids for the majority of the day. So after the wedding and staying up late so we slept a lot, but I was worried because it was supposed to check out that day of the hotel, so I woke up a little early and Started to do the suitcases, mine and the kids as well, I let them sleep and then my boss called me and told me that maybe we were going to stay one more night and that day we were to spent it in the pool!! and I say YAIIII!! So she came to my room and we woke up the kids to eat breakfast and get ready for the pool. My tow kids thank God knows who to swing, so I let them there and I just relaxed beside the pool, but I wanted to play with them, So I joined to the fun and we played and played in the pool, after a while one of the cousin came to the Pool, and R went to play with him and I play with my little V. That day I played with her, and I bond with her again, I just wanted to

Hi guys!! Well next day after they arrive (V and R) we were supposed to go to a baptism in the morning, I woke up early, got dressed and then I tried to wake up the kids, R was sleeping with me in the same room and V in other room with her sister, well, R didn't wanted to wake up, so I went to the other room and V neither wanted to woke up, I didn't know what to do at that point, I remembered in the past when R didn't get so much sleep and he were all grumpy, screaming and kicking, so I decided to not wake him up, and V, well, I didn't know  how she was going to react because I didn't know her that well to know , so I did what I have to do, I called their mom! When my boss came, V was awake, a little grumpy but not bad, and R was just sleeping, he was just too tired to start his day that early, so at the end I stayed in the hotel with R and V went to the baptism with the whole family, It was fine for me, I just rested and watched TV till noon when R woke up and

Hi guys!! I'm back, I wanted to document this because I want to look back and read all over again the feeling that I felt those days! Let me start, for a couple week I have known that they probably will come, I was so excited and nervous about it, I was thinking that My kids haven't seen me in more than a year so a wasn't sure how they will react. Well the fact is that I came to pikichaky (their house) a couple days early before the date of their arrive, the house was left alone for a couple of months so there's was a lot of dust and dirty al over the place, thank god Tata (grandpa) called a cleaning lady to come and help me to clean this big house, then they day came, I went to airport with the uncle of them and my belly was hurting and I felt butterfly all over and after one hour of waiting they show up, and immediately R recognize me and wave to me, but V, my little girl, didn't recognized me, she look at me with a weird face and told her mother that I look d

Hi  guys!! well as you can see I disappeared for 11 days! they were the most happiest days in a long time! I spent my time playing, laughing, enjoying and doing fun stuff!! I'll be doing the whole post one day in this week!! But for now here is my surprise sneak peek.