Just My Life In Spain

Hello my friends!! as you can see I figure it out a way to try to protect my niece, (My main reason the why I went private), so sorry to private you to see her sweet face, but this the only way that I feel comfortable to make public my blog again Well last week we baptize my Niece, it was Easter so the Mass was so beautiful and the church was beautiful. I was the Godmother and my brother in law's brother was the Godfather  She was so good during the Mass, well, we gave her a lot of cookies during the mass, but still she behave so well... I was so excited and Happy to be able to share this moment, and happy because my niece now is a daughter of god The father talk about Jesus, and how were the baptizes before, and also remain us our duty with God

I have 25 already, I feel like I'm 20, some days I want to come back and change some things, but Another days think that I like my life. I'm 25 I don't feel or look like a think a 25 years old women should look or act, but I think that nobody feel or act as their age, my older sister is 30 and she said that now is when she is feeling more comfortable with who is she, in her twenty she had a lot of dubs and that how I feel now. Today, I'm so happy with how I am, I'm happy to spent one more year with my sister and niece, I thanks God to make me who I'm and how I am, I'm thankful to my mother and Dad to raise me how they did. I have to start enjoying the present and not worry much for the future, for me in complicated, I'm always thinking  about my future, but I will try. I hope had the best 25 years to come, Happy Birthday to me.

For one moment I thought I need to go private on this blog, for my safety, my family safety or well, my niece safety... but then I'm private and I don't want to blog, that Means that I need a break? but once again I'm here blogging, missing my blog, missing write about everything, but at the same time I feel that I do not have anything interesting to blog, Maybe I have but my mind can coming out with something to put in here. So I was thinking to make public my blog again, change the look of it, and try to post about at leas once a week about the caring of a child and also about my life, I have to put had in order I know I will start here, so I don't know when I'm gonna do it, But I will!!!

First post as a Private blog, for now is just God and Me, I don't know if this is going to affect my regular posts or something, but I have to remind myself that I do this to improve my English and also I became private for the security of my family... (nothing happened, and I am far away, it's just I have to figure it out what to do with the photos of children, we never know). I do know how long I'm gonna be private maybe just a couple of months, maybe more, I just did it because right now I feel that this is the right decision. Right now I'm Still in Spain, but NOW I know that I have to go back to Venezuela in May, I don't feel anything, I don't know if is good or bad, because I read that when you don't feel anything you're depressed, REALLY I don't know if I'm depressed,  I'm just sad to go back, I'm sad because I left everything in Caracas, (well the few things that I had), also I think that I'm just accepting the things, and

Hello... After a lot of thinking I decide to go private, For now!! I don't know if  I ever going to be back again aas a public blog. I decide this just to protect my niece and Family in General, I want to know who is watching my pictures and who is reading my stuff... So this is going to be my last week as a public blog... If you want to keep reading send me your e-mail and I will Add you to the list of people who can access to this blog!! See you later!!

Hello Friends!! 25 just a number right? It could mean so many things for so many people, for me it just a remainder of what is my life, if I'm doing good with my life?, It's 25, 5 more years and I'll be 30, where I'm gonna be in 5 years? 5 years ago I thought that by this time, I will be settle here, living by my own, have a boyfriend and planing my future, but how the saying say, "Make plans and God will laugh", I'm in my way, I Know I'm going to be there, but the time fly and I don't know what is going to happen. I really hope that 25 will be my number, I really hope, but now I just wait, some days are better than others, but overall I'm happy. in 6 days I'll be 25, I can't believe, I feel like I have 20, some days even like a girl, and some days like a old women, I really don't know if everyone (I mean women) feel this way or it just me. Who do you feel at 25?

Hello My friends!! Everybody needs moments, a break moment, a momenta for yourself, I NEED IT, and I know that you too, for most people their moment is at the end of the day, is when the house is quite, there’s nothing else to do, for other people is the rise morning, when everybody is still sleeping and you are enjoying a cup of hot coffee, without the rush of anyone or anything disturbs that moment, others their time it’s when they can get it, is almost like a surprise everyday, and you do whatever you want to do at that moment. In Venezuela my Moment always was at the end of the day, when I came home after work, I just went straight to say hi to everyone, chit chat a little bit about ours day, call my dad, take my dog for a walk, and then it was my time, I used to spent it my time in the social media, in my computer, watching my Favorites shows, and relaxing, but here, my time is when I can get it, this is not my house, so I try to help the most, I take care of my Niece, I

Last weekend my sister, Brother in law, niece and I went to the beach for the first time this year, In Venezuela you can go to the beach any time, but here you need the perfect weather, season, etc to be able to go. Being  there my sister called 2 of her friends and my brother in law called one of his friends, the weather was great, but the water was so cold, (I miss my Caribbean beaches), we went to the south of the beach, is the tourist part, you see a lot of Germans there, and I love going there because you feel that you are in vacations. At the end of the day we went to a pub and drank some drinks, and just talked and chill, My niece ate her first McDonals and she loves it (of course). I’m glad that we had that little time there.

Hello my friends!! When you see everything dark, you can’t recognizance the little lights around you, My visit with the lawyer went wonderful, She gave me a choice to stay that it’s easy but I a little afraid to do it, but I think for now is the best choice. When I didn't have this choice, Everything around me was dark, my humor was dark, I didn't wanted to feel anything, I was just existing and doing the things that I have to do as babysit my Niece, clean, etc, But I wasn't enjoying this because my mind was in another place. Today I see the light, I want to think that GOD send me this light, and I want to hold on to that as long as I can, today I see everything brighter, everything is fun, life is good again, I Still have  LONG way , I still have to get some answers, but I see the light. Do you see your light every day?? 

 Yesterday I went to a lawyer about my situation in here, she is a Venezuelan lawyer who has been living here for 12 years, she knows the laws in Venezuela and also of Spain. I ask her  about my situations and also I presented to her some scenarios that what could happen if, she was so nice and clear about everything, she gave me answer about what I can do being in here and what I can do from Venezuela. Spain has been In crisis for about 6 years, and because of that, my options has been cut, I'm only have like 3 or 4 options, every one with risk, and I have to make a decision about what to do, and who to do it, I’m willing to take risk, I’m afraid, but I can’t live in Venezuela Anymore, no for now… One thing is sure, I have to go back in May, maybe for one week, or more but I have to, that’s not bad at all, let’s see… By the end of this month my final decision have to be made!! I promised to keep posting!! 

Muffins Hello friends Well,  I’m going to get fat here, hahaha, O LOVE TO BAKE, and last week I made Banana Nutella’s muffin, Oh my so good!! I follow this recipe , and it well so good, it was easy and simple and the taste Is the best. My sister helped me, and at the end we made 27 muffins and in 4 days we almost eat it all!! I wanna do it again, but my sister says not, she doesn't want to get fat… hahaha

 Hello my friends, I was desappear because I didn't had the time to blog, and when I do have the time, I Don’t have Internet, so that’s how it is, for now let’s talk about happiness. What is happiness for you? I think that every single human being has a different significant of happiness, it’s not the same meaning for me a Latin girl as a European Girl, to me everything depends of where you had born, where you had been raised, how you had been raised, gender,  Age, culture etc. I was thinking about my life, and  I compare with my pairs, I want things that my pairs don’t think about it just yet, also I compare myself with people of other cultures, and what they achieve and I don’t, what they are doing and I don’t, etc, That’s bad and good, Bad because sometimes you can get very sad or even depressed, and sometime good because that push you to go farther and achieve your goals. Right now for me my happiness consist in stay here, grow here, have a job, a house, even a rente

Hello My friends!!! I love the April month, just because this month is my birthday!! I turn 25, I CAN'T believe that!! I'm happy though. Yesterday my boss told me that she hired a new nanny for MY kids, and she is Venezuelan also, I feel a little sad, jealous, envy, but at the end I accepted the fact that I decide to come here, that I'm not there, and that they need a new Nanny!! But today my boss made my day, she told me that R call the new nanny with my name, that means that he remember me, and I LOVE THAT, I miss them so much, and sometime I wish I could be with them, and maybe someday I will, but also I need to move on, and HAVE a life, I want to be the fun aunt that visited them once a year!!! I hope to be that!!!